Thoughts

I don't normal post messages on here or facebook about my personal dramas. But have decided that I need an outlet to write my thoughts and figure things out. So if you don't want to read this (I don't have anyone reading my blog anyways) don't read it.
I have been going to a lot of stuff lately and it seems that people (my family) particular just don't and don't want to understand. This is just something I am trying to deal with.
On Tuesday my only child, my baby daughter graduated 6th grade. Now I was so excited to go see her graduation and bound and determined to go no matter what. I have issues leaving my house, fear mostly, anxiety and panic attacks. The only think I could think about for 2 days was all the things that could go wrong. I am an obese  person with really bad knees, consistent pain in my knees and feet. So all I think about is if I fall how will I get up cause I can't put any kind of pressure on my knees. The last 2 times I feel I had to call the Fire Department to come help me out, if that isn't embarrassing enough. In Jan I decided that I was going to change things and lose some of this weight. My doctor suggest I give up pasta, rice, white bread. So I went online and found the Low Carb/High Fat life sytle and this sounded like something I could actually follow. I have always sucked at diets, hence being very obese. I told my sister-in-law about my plan and she said she would like to do it with me. So I waited around for her to get in touch with me and that never happened. In Feb I started slowing removing carbs from my diet. I had already started getting rid of processed foods from my families diets and started making things home made. This life style change to start off cost some bucks. From getting all the different flours, protein and sugars. I tired several different all natural sugars with no luck, my pallet can't stand them. Once that stay gets on my tongue it doesn't go away no matter what I do, even brush my teeth. I finally got things going with the life style change and for the most part I am good with it. There are some things I miss like bagels and English muffins. Eggs are not my favorite thing in the world to eat and this diet requires them big time.
Since starting this life style change in June I went to the Doctors and found out I had lost 50 pounds, I was so excited and not happy at the same time. If I have lost all this weight, why am I so tired. The Doctor tells me I am borderline anemic and that he thinks I have a ulcer which might be slowly bleeding cause the anemic. So I go and see a gastroenteritis and they are going to do the up and lower viewing of my insides. And that doesn't get done till Sept 15th.
So for the next two months I have to live with being so tired, some days aren't so bad but other days they are really bad, I am so tired, I can't deal with people I am so shorted tempered.  I just really can't deal with anything. I am so tired of being tired and not being able to do the simplest things without being exhausted. All I want to do is have the energy to sweep and mop my disgusting kitchen floor. That is all I want to be able to do and catch mustard up enough energy.

Chicken Breasts with Mushroom and Onion Dijon Sauce

No cooking dinner Wednesday night, it the celebrator Graduation, report card dinner and Mc Donalds. That is where she wanted to go. I really don't care anymore for McDonalds.
Last night for dinner I made one of my favorite dishes. Since it was suppose to rain here yesterday I decided to make a chicken dish. This dish is the greatest. I just love it.  Chicken Breasts with Mushroom and Onion Dijon Sauce from A Family Feast. Is just awesome. 5 Stars

Italian Burgers

My beautiful baby girl graduated 6th grade today. My has the time flown by. I am so proud of her. She tries so hard in school and does such a wonderful job.

Last night for Dinner I made Italian Burgers by Joyful Healthy Eats. I did change the recipe a bit to fit what I had and they came incredible yummy.

I added the sun dried tomatoes in the ground beef cause I only had some diced some. I also added Italian seasonings into the beef. I didn't have any prosciutto

so I used thick cut bacon. For the Aioli I used  arugula cause my basil plant is getting a little thin cause i have been using it so much. LOL 

These are really taste hamburgers. We loved them.  4 Stars

Low carbs if you don't have the buns. I used Boston lettuce leaves as my buns. 

Father's Day

Yesterday everyone had a great time. My husband's mom and dad came over for dinner to celebrate Father's Day together.
I started the day by making my husband's favorite breakfast, Eggs Benedict. He loves them. I used Ree Drummond's Blender Hollandise Sauce. He said they were really good. I have never had them cause I don't like poached eggs, but I didn't put some of the hollandise sauce on my scrabbled eggs and it was really good. 4 stars according to my Husband.

For afternoon dinner we had Kansas City Rubbed Riblets, my potato salad, caprese salad and for desert strawberry shortcake with homemade biscuits. 

Dinner came our really really good. 

These are the biscuits I made and you have to make them they are sop good. I have to say these were the best biscuits I have ever made. Supper moist, flaky and buttery. Love them. Even made  egg, bacon and cheese on biscuits this morning for breakfast. AWESOME 

Greek Yogurt Biscuits by Lovely Little Kitchen Food Blog

I don't like Greek Yogurt cause I don't like it, instead I used sour cream. 5 Stars

Really Busy Week

Last week was so busy for me. Starting with Dr.'s Appt on Monday, which I didn't care for at all. He didn't seem like he could take the time to talk with me. But I don't have the scopes done till Sept. So I have to live with the anemia till then.
Monday for dinner we just had hotdogs, plain and simple.
Tuesday I didn't cook was just too stressed out so we had cereal. I love cereal and milk.
Wednesday I made thee most awesome porkchops, I can't believe how good they were.
Grilled Pork Chops with Tarragon Butter From Tora's Real Food Blog

I didn't use tarragon cause I am not the biggest fan of it, so I used some nice

fresh basil instead. And let me tell you, these were just so moist and flavorful, my husband said to me these were the best grilled pork chops he has ever had. Score one for me. YEAH even my daughter loved them 5 Stars

Thursday night we had Shanghai Noodles, from the Daring Gourmet Food Blog. 

these were so good and flavorful. Even the next day when reheated the pork wasn't dried out at all. I did however marinate my pork over night. awesome. 

Everyone loved them.  5 Stars

Friday night my husband and daughter had spaghetti and I had sausage and fried cabbage with I love.